Sunday, June 29, 2014

Learning to see again

After living within a stones throw to the ocean for three weeks, I'm not sure how I can live anywhere else again. I've never thought I'd live near a beach. I'm not into the tanning, the skimpy bathing suits, and sand everywhere kind of life. But for some reason this island life seems to just fit me like a glove. I'll do my best to explain.
This is going to sound so ridiculous, but it think being here has changed how I approach life, view myself, and other people, and it's only been three weeks. I've never felt more comfortable in my own skin. I wasn't one of those people uncomfortable with themselves, at least consciously. But there is something about being here that strips away any of the excess expectations I've placed on myself whether physically or emotionally, and it strips away those same unconscious expectations I have for others. I haven't felt a need to mold my personality into a preconceived ideal of what I should be or could be. Everyone I am around, regardless of gender, seems beautiful to me simply because I am getting better at seeing with my soul rather than my eyes. That's so corny. I even cringed a little while typing that. But it's the best way I can describe it.
It's as if natural natural beauty shines brighter here. I'm not sure of that is because of lack of internet access, the summer vibes, or if it's just in the Okinawa water, but people and places shine brighter to me here. No one wears makeup. Everyone is sweaty with frizzy hair. But it's as if now we have no barriers to hide behind. The water is crystal blue, the jungle is the most vibrant green I've ever seen, and there is no such thing as a stranger.
Like I said. This sounds so ridiculous. But I feel as if this place is teaching me to see beauty in people, places, and things better. We don't have our phones, our makeup, our schools, or our friends and family to hide behind. Those things aren't what define us here. What defines us is how much we laugh, how much we include others, the impact we can have on our kids, and what we make of our time here.

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